Tuesday, November 8, 2011

The one where we try to potty train Lillian by Christmas(ish)

Ok Im in one of my Stephanie moods.. typical me have a hard day/sad day and I get all empowered.

So last night at my friend Jon's funeral I was talking with my bf Josh and his wife April.. turns out Josh potty trained their daughter K in two weeks. Im jealous with envy and I need this to happen.



So Im giving my self a challenge Lillian and I(yes I, after all I'm part of the problem) will be potty trained by Christmas! So every one hold on for a bumpy mess and we WILL DO THIS! Please send Lillian and I your support this could get messy and ugly! So today November 8th starts officially officially potty training! shoot even send me advice as I haven't done this with my own child EVER!

 Love "Lil's" and "Stepher's"

Friday, November 4, 2011

Suprise Update

Hello all! It has been a while since my last post, yet not that long ago I was telling you about my hope being restored! Days after I posted about my Hope being restored I got my 5th tattoo (yes I said 5th)  here is a little picture of it!
                                             
The picture was taken right after I had my tattoo done at the shop. It is located below my bra line on my left side. I wanted this tattoo for a few months and thought and thought of its placement. I did it so when my hope is deep down and low I can rub my tattoo with my right hand.. it is also located on the same side of my body as my tattoo of Lillian and Cody's name!

Speaking of that handsome birth son of mine, I sent him two cards in late September with a letter hand written to his mother. One of his cards was a I hope you had a great summer, welcome back to school(even tho I know you would rather be swimming and playing baseball) card, the other a Sponge Bob Halloween card. In the letter to his mom I said if you would ever want to send me up dates or pictures I would be more than happy to take them!:) I asked about his testing he had done in March for  Dyslexia. I can't quite recall if I have ever mentioned this before but, I have the learning disabilities Dyslexia and ADD.

To my GREAT SURPRISE I was woken up from my nap by Matt saying "you got mail you may want to get up for this" He saw mail from our adoption agency and didn't know if it was for ME or us as a family.. so he opened it! Which I was more than fine with.. To our surprise it was a update! Filled with a beautiful drawing Cody made for me, a letter form his mother and a beautiful picture of Cody!:) My boy made ME  a picture!! Im working on getting it framed for our bed room! I have NEVER had my son make me a picture.. he is almost 9 now but I will take that picture for all it is worth!( since Lillian is two this i my first I made a picture for my mom picture ever) :) Im so proud of my Cody!! But sadly I got the news I was not wanting to hear. Cody tested positive for a reading and matt learning disability.

When I was trying to find Cody the perfect parents, I let his parents know a head of time that I have my disabilities and want him tested as soon/ as early as they can. I know from my life experience the sooner it is diagnoses the better his education out come can be. I told them your going have to "ride" him about school! We want this boy to go on to be the best him... that be collage, a trade what ever his heart desires!

While talking with Matt over dinner I asked him an out of the box question... I wonder what Cody's mom ( we can call her Summer) had to say about the drawing. For it has me and Cody in the picture. As you can guess my mind went to the place of was she mad, up set. Also of course does he want to actually meet me? I feel all of my thoughts and feelings are normal.

I was just so shocked and surpised by receiving my up date! I miss my Cod man every day, this update effects me so much! Im not sure his mom, Summer has any idea. I know I only spent nine-ten months and two days in the hospital and one "visit" but I do I really do miss him loads and loads. I keep thanking God for this update. I feel like I can't stop Thanking him enough.

I hope you all have a great weekend! Tomorrow is our nieces formal. We get to go watch her get her hair done  and take pictures. Sadly my class mates brother passed Wednesday(he was a class above me) so Saturday We are going to a bf in his oner to raise money for his children and Monday is his funeral.

Im sure your waiting to see it so here is Cody's picture from my update! Oh the change a few months has made on Summer! Thank you Jesus! Ps don't I make cute babies;)